Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

As I celebrate my 45th year, 2024 has been a whirlwind of challenges and growth. Transitioning into a stay-at-home, work-from-home mom, I've found new ways to balance life while cherishing the time spent with my child. Our travels often lead us to the beautiful Ilocos Norte, a favorite destination that offers a perfect blend of relaxation and adventure. A Shift in Focus: From Blogging to Videos Life's demands have steered me away from regular blogging. The digital landscape now calls for more engaging content, and I've embraced this by shifting to video uploads. This new medium allows me to connect with my audience more dynamically, sharing our travels, daily life, and personal experiences in a more vivid and immersive way. Visit my Vlog here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1-TWaSIMaYrEqg_f7Xg14Q Health Challenges and Recovery Journey Earlier this year, on February 12, I faced a significant health scare with an ischemic heart attack. It was a mild one, but it left me wi...

I went to this place with family just recently. And I was surprised, a whiff of that familiar feeling hit me. That happiness I felt those days I went on a crazy rendezvous, probably the craziest I have ever done in my life. I flew planes to be with you on weekends. I rode busses to be with you and make you feel how crazy in love I was with you. It was crazy. I had too much that I gave, that was too much happiness for me. That was one of what I think the happiest moments of my life. What I can remember vaguely was, you were in that place, I came and visited you and stayed the weekend in a hotel or a place you stay in which I do not clearly remember but what resonated with me was the excitement I felt when you came to the door after your work day and we just consumed our selves the wholenight and I just gave myself fully. I was very happy that day. But I know that was one memory away. I was thankful for that. I do not think I fully forgave myself with something about that part of my life...

My son and I, (Taluli, my angel, now 5 years of age) have been inside the confines of our barangay (Brgy 170) for approximately 4 weeks now. The Philippines has been placed in Extreme Quarantine for a month now and as a single mother living alone with a child, this has been a challenge mentally because I get to stay at home with my kid and be the best mother while I beat the anxiety that I always fought in being a person who needed to “ always get it going on”. March 12, 2020 — Duterte announced that there was a pandemic and that the country has been put in Extreme Quarantine. As this news came I knew that my senses will raise a full alert and try to deal with this situation at hand. My son was supposed to have a moving up ceremony and was supposed to practice prior but things kept moving and school suspending that he and I just had to be still. There was panic and fear that I was physically trying to beat the anxiety attacks for the first 4 days of the ECQ. My mind was on a c...

I get high on my own so I am all alone nakakalungkot isipin na madalas sa lakbay na to ako lang talaga mag isa. Kayod na lang para me relevance ako.  Ganun talaga. Hindi ka pinagpala. Hmmm..

She was running as fast as she could  While no one was holding her down Then someone came along to lift her up You kept grabbing her by the arm  Your words are like daggers  Pinning her on the ground while she wanted to fly She tried to escape so she can no longer be raped By your abusive rants and cries She kept changing her life so her future can be so bright But the atmosphere of your existence was savage  And energy so negative That she cannot see the light Now she is drowning alone  Catching her life in deep breath Her body now wretched and tired  That you pushed her towards her death.

Why do I sing the songs that I sing? Why do I make the songs I make? I kept thinking about that after my Jam session in Kooky Tuasons' show where in I was a guest along with 2 lifestyle geniuses. Photo Courtesy of Bigkas Pilipinas  I was asked by  AA Patawaran, Manila Bulletin's Lifestyle editor something to the effect of why do I make my songs. Afraid to explain a fair bit and call too much attention to myself, I resorted to explaining it in bits that would be interesting so I can avoid going down the path of dragging listeners to boredom.It was a funny version of the whole explanation as to why. It bothered me that I did not express my truth fully because I was afraid to draw too much attention to the place in my soul I secretly call my own. Link to the 4 hour show here: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2337386626494279&id=249511228120 The fact is , that is a question that I am asked often. Kevin Roy asked me that in our joint gig in parana...

Taluli is now 4 and is in the age when he is super curious and super enjoying pretend play and that the only way to get him to pay attention is through relatable mediums like his favorite YouTube, Sci Fi and Supernatural.  Every parent wants to manage a kid these days and part of this is giving them gadgets where they can play and watch YouTube, I know it is the worst thing you can do to a kid but because these kids are naturally seeking stimulus relating to anything that is in YouTube when a parent is absent and busy hence making YouTube an ally to these toddlers. But when is enough, enough? I have noticed that Taluli started to sound like a YouTuber and would talk about anything that is in YouTube and adapt mannerisms, and expressions as exaggerated as a YouTuber would sound,  like a total disconnect to reality. That is when I already had to draw the line and think of ways on how to not necessary keep him off of the Tube, but limit his exposure to it.  Talul...

So everyone is on to their new year's resolution and I am sitting here having second thoughts as to what and how will I approach my "coming-into-my-forties" year which is just another year supposedly, but with bigger responsibilities. (uhm, Taluli is getting bigger wiser and full of dreams and promise that I gotta give a boy a better life besides what we have now) At this time of my life, I finally have embraced my leadership skills and talent for figuring out shit from puzzle pieces that I do that as a full time career.  So heck I will lead my self now and figure shit out from the puzzle pieces of my own life and take full reign of my happier future.  Pweh daming kuda! So on to my new year's resolution: 1.) I will try and bike to work so I will be back to my fitter self so I can eat what I want and have a reason to eat them, sans rice which killed my vibe so bad.      I used to bike to work and saved so much and ate everything I want sans the ri...

Forgive yourself for being human in craving things that are wrong and that are bad for you simply because you hurt yourself over and  over again and again For grabbing things you dont know about  For playing Fire Games that eventually burn  And Scar and become Permanent Inprints Of the innocence you felt you were robbed of Yes it is you who opened the door and you who allowed But that does not mean that you are to blame or she is to blame Know that life happens to the current reason of your state of being Though you get motivated with every single fucking blister  from walking with shoes that are not fit for you You just need to all of a sudden succumb to retire to the fact that, hey  The illusion of appearance and standards of being are fallacies born by social stigmas  And that getting tired is just a state of mind fighting to react towards the wave that steal ones happiness is the real battle.  that no money can buy no thing can satisfy And Getting through that minute every single t...

thank you lord for the gift of 39 years in life thank you for making 2018 my year thank you for giving me a second chance in life thank you for opening up doors for me thank you for the love that you always showed me thank you for loving me inconditionally  thank you for making me strong, wise and humble  thank you for making me  thank you for giving me Taluli thank you for blessing me with awesome people in my life You have no idea how you blessed my life  You always catched me when I fell You became a father to me more than everyone or anyone can ever be You truly have never left me Whoever you are they may call you God But i call you mine. 

So last Febuary 9, 2018 ( Friday) Taluli and I ventured out and went on a spontaneous trip to Tondol Beach. I only planned to go and not much about "going" like planning or how some people would take a "relaxed" vacation. My idea of a relaxed vacation is spontaneous, unforgettable, unexpected and a continous discovery . I would call this the road to chill. So on to the detail. After going off of from my work at BGC, I booked an Uber to pick up Taluli from Fairview Q.C. at about 9:30 am in time for our planned 10:30 am descent, which did not happen. 10:30 am, the only bus available was the bus going to Anda, Pangasinan, which was straight up on point to our destination ( Tondol Beach is Located in Anda) but not airconditioned. I am game for anything but the kid wants his aircon so we decided to hop on a bus going to Bolinao instead. So I picked up food in andoks, 4 pieces of emergency Dokito Fried Chicken and 2 pieces of liempo just incase food will suck onc...

Sometimes I ask myself... How do people meet and fall in love  Do they sing and dance together to their hearts content and reach the peak in ecstacy to know that they are a match? Do they have to crawl struggle and get bloody until they come to realize that the person who continously wipe the blood off their face is the same person they are bound to be forever with? I introduce people to their potential and my hunches work out for them to the point that they stay forever until today and in the years to come I have attended weddings where in people thank me because I was the reason they crossed paths I have been in relationships in between rocky marriages and have been the reason why this marriages get fixed I am wondering how my story will work out in this world where people are full of themselves and their needs never even thinking about........ "hey what about her? How can she be happy the same she made me?"   Am I in a wrong fucked up state of brain? Or am I just too lazy ...

So Taluli and I are fans of toy unboxing in youtube, we chanced upon a youtuber who unboxed the Animal Planet Mega Shark and Whale Toy Set and decided to venture out and check out it's price so I can buy my boy one, but lo and behold,  PHP 9,247.00 - What? So the resourceful mom that I am decided to look around and I see online that Toys R us is selling this item way lower $21.00 - PHP 1,050 come on. Lazada, what a rip off. So I seeked help from US friends to get me one during cyber monday sale. The toy arrived and we unboxed it. This is taluli's dream toy, so YOU CAN JUST IMAGINE the look in his eyes when he got this present unannounced. You can watch our youtube video here:  Please do not forget to like the video and subscribe to our channel for more of my single mom adventures with Taluli. 

I am Remy Marie Del Rosario, 37 years of  age, a soccer player turned mom. My son,Tala Elija is now a soccer player. Went to soccer school before formal schooling so just he can tell where and  when is it appropriate to let all the energy out. As a new three year old, (he just turned three last june) his attention span is being challenged by this activity, staying for an hour focusing on soccer is a huge feat. Also the discipline of following a leader (sometimes) is now being built early so it would be easier for me and his future teachers to take on teaching this one of a kind toddler. Of  course, He is wearing a Real Madrid jersey. So I got to interview him for his first day in class and this is what he had to say: And just like that my status changed to SOCCER MOM.

I lost my father last week from cardiac arrest. And through the course of grieving I lost not a father but a meaning to life. In just one blink of an eye, you are a memory, a matter that passed. All the false pretense of how to live, carry and hold your life was a big fat lie. The battles and pseudo triumphs you picked and lost to were fucked up imaginings that strain and drain your human body. That you are a slave to chemicals, your soul lives by the promise and result of chemical reactions. It all goes down  to this end of the road where you are nothing but a dead body left to be buried into the very same imaginings that evokes simultaneous reactions for chemicals to feed on neurons to make  the hormones of the ones you leave behind react into a blissful state of something. The end is cold.  The end is cold.

Donald Trump, Rodrigo Duterte, Radical Solutions and desolutions are openings for opportunities and change. There is a change that humanity is craving beyond the systems that are in place. That is just how the way it is, until it is put in a box that people are accustomed to, it will always be the subject of confusion and hate to people who have a parallel understanding of how the universe works. Knowing this does not mean you are okay with it..just means stepping back and assesing is the way you can live along these changes while keeping your morals and beliefs intact. Reacting to the actions of people that operate within the change does not help create the balance of your life, it is the work that you do to further your understanding that will create harmony. There  will always be the inevitable and chaos. I will discuss this in my blog as I go along.

So I was asked by my boss to come and report for work, first thing that came to my mind was, what time do I freaking leave my mom's house because MNL traffic situation has no chill at all, worst of it's kind? How can I travel as cheap as I can going to the place I need to go to that is as comfortable as I am in a chauffered service like Uber or Grab Car or even close? I first saw this point to point service in ayala while I was dining out with my best  football buddy Rica and thought of trying it out the next time I am headed south. I personally think that this will kill the muck out of the current shitty bus system. So when I was presented an opportunity to travel southbound for work, I didn't miss a chance of riding this Point to Point shuttle service. For just 100 pesos I am able to enjoy pro's such as: 1.) Cruising just like how comfortable you would be in a car. 2.) Free Wi-Fi. 3.) Friendlier Bus Drivers 4.) Peaceful and safer compared to riding in a ...

You are not a mother of a forever curious and smart toddler if your keyboard does not turn up as this: I know I have a mom blog but Oh my brother, Taluli in his terible two's. Just the other day, this forever curious toddler took a trip with me to a place where there is a Koi pond and he was just in awe seeing the live  fishes. He started to throw stones, I panic in stopping him and patiently telling him how he should not be throwing stones as it will be painful if I did the same to him. Back and forth dude. I eat (The place that had a koi pond happened to be a food place) 3 bites and all of a sudden this boy takes off his shoes, tells me he is going to swim I put down the spoon and run to grab this toddler and think of a way to sit him still. But despite of this craziness, you  look into his face and every single crazy fit turns to a sweet smile. How do you get mad at this cuteness? Photo Credits to Barbara Santos and Richard Fruto of Fairview Bikers

I miss you around me making me smile greeting me good morning I miss you making me feel I miss that I can just call you and you will be here and you would make me feel calm. I still wake up around the same time that we both do 2-3 am I don't know If you still do. you have been my sweet space you made me feel really tender and it was amazing I don't know if it was amazing for you I don't know if you felt what I felt. but i had to stop it had to stop. because you no longer wanted. And I don't know how to cope with rejection. I had to be. I have to let it go. it is hard. I am counting the kilometers I spend biking in the places far away I already ran miles but still the pain is just the same I don't know when I will find or will I be found. But what happens now is I have to clean up every little mess I made Make up for all lost time that was brought about by my impulsiveness Do my own personal responsibilities With a hurt heart I k...

Dear Boy, It's easy to play on a fat girl with low self esteem You won't live to regret anything.