Lesson Learned from Courtney Love

I remember the days..I got hooked with those gurrl bands back in my high school days. Saving up for tapes of Hole, Veruca Salt, Babes in Toyland among others, I would grab a hold of our kitchen mortar or brush and sang on my gut when this song was played.

I think courtney sang this right after Kurt Cobain Took his life and shot himself in the kitchen floor.



I had a phase where I so adored Courtney love, I used her lipstick, I would be collecting her pictures buying magazines with her on it. I was a fan. She was my rock madonna.

But this song, for some strange reason is a good lesson learned from those days. until now channelling anger with this song on tow is a funny thing.
I can say this song has pumped my gas up for years.

If you want to sing along, go ahead.

VIOLET-HOLE

And the sky was made of amethyst
And all the stars look just like little fish
You should learn when to go
You should learn how to say no

Might last a day yeah
Mine is forever
Might last a day, yeah
Well mine is forever

When they get what they want they never want it again
When they get what they want they never want it again

Go on, take everything, take everything I want you to
Go on, take everything take everything take everything I want you to

And the sky was all violet I want it again, but more violet, more violet
Hey, Im the one with no soul
One above and one below

Go on, take everything take everything I want you to
Go on, take everything take everything I want you to

I told you from the start just how this would end
When I get what I want I never want it again

Go on, take everything take everyting I want you to
Go on, take everything, take everything I want you to
Go on, take everything, take everything I want you to
Go on, take everything, take everything I want you to
Go on take everything take everything take everything take everything

Music, Work and You

Because I am just curious, I asked these brokers, bankers, recruters and analyst associations of mine what effect music brings to them when they are at work

Some people cannot work without a specific genre playing in their ipod or pc. Some people like silence. Others have their energies surging over techno tunes.


Here are the answers that came up:

I can make better and faster decisions when listening to house music. - Noel Magada, Recruiter

I listen to new age - meditation music in the background when I need to focus and calm down and then listen to rock music when I want to get energized - Dawn Van Zant, Investorideas.com

Good question! CNBC is on my TV from the minute I walk in and it's the last thing I turn off when I leave (90% of the time the volume is off and I play music). What I listen to really depends on my mood at the time and what I'm working on or who I'm preparing to meet w/. When I need to get pumped up it's usually metal (Pantera, Slayer...) When I need to "chill" I'll listen to Bach's Cello Suites- My all time favorite being Rostropovich's version (my deserted island disc).-Greg Plancher, Financial Advisor/ Broker H&R Block Financial

By the way, I need punk/rock inthe morning, country music at work, but love jazz in the evenings for interlude and then back to rock for the rest if the night. -

Dean Haskell, Former CEO, Real American Restaurants, Restaurant Analyst, Morgan Joseph and Co.

I on the other hand plug in my personal evolution cd from the place i call home ;) and get energized. And for some brain r&r I plug in My collection of nature sounds like piano in the beach and amazon rainforest. I also play my chillout collection, Theivery Corporation, Telefon Tel Aviv, japanese electronica (no lyrics please), Coldcut, Lovage, Hed Kandi, Ministry of Sound Lamb, Frou Frou, Masive Attack, Zero 7and for some dynamic setting I play Tiesto, Orbital, Groove Armada, Ferry Corsten, Hooverphonic, Chicane, Paul Oakenfold and Victor Calderone. When I want some heat I play Pearl Jam, Some Pantera but not all. I have a technique in my ipod to shut up the lyrics so all I can hear are the riffs.

Roads

There are just some nice, good, things that happen in somebody's life. Sometimes they are too good and nice that we tend to make a big deal out of it because we see ourselves too small, walking in stiff steps we fumble, stumble and fall.

Because it was too huge to handle, we crush ourselves in the process. Thats when you have to have people who care enough to grab you by the horns and bring you back up, no matter what. People around you who believe that you are more than you think you are they are violently grabbing you out of the quagmire you stumbled yourself with. In this crazy world where friends come and go, I count myself lucky because I am sorrounded by people who love me. As unbelievable as it is, I was so loved. Perfect love that drives away fear, melts the hardest heart of men.



I can say I had a very hard heart, the hardest heart that I have ever known at least. A heart that abhored vulnerable moments, who smoked and drank away that squeezy feeling everytime it came, quit smoking and drinking and got addicted to smoke screens and as you give up the last addiction of your life, you see yourself naked, weak and raw. It is a new and uncharted territory but you know, it's something good and amazing. With wobbling knees and hands gripping to the source, you trekk the road full of emotions, and choices of feelings. When you know what you know it should be easy, but when you know what you know and yet refuse to cleave on the truth of what you know you are setting yourself up to fail.

Life was a gift given with roads, intersections, detours, u-turns and sideskirts. You and I are just dumb travellers and yet in our dumbness we are offered things called bounties. We walk and eat chew and spit the good from the bad. All that was primary was life and death, night and day, and we just walk, talk and taste. As men evolved standards were raised, the word Good was conceptualized and defined and the word bad was put to place as anything that is not defined as good. As men constantly evolved, the defintion of the 2 primary elements became more complicated as people became greedy in between grabbing definition to justify their existence. But still with this are the same roads, intersections, detours, u-turns and sideskirts that were always available as pathways towards a beggining and an end.

And I just want to be of the dumb. Theres nothing personal to a dumb man, there is nothing that is extraordinary, a stumbling block and a detterent to a dumb man because he just walks and chooses from the primary things in life which is light and dark along with life and death. What a dumb man does is open his mouth and say OH.

Today, People..

.....Are pissed off because they did not get the deal they we're looking forward to have.
.....Just came out of the hospital happy. It's a baby boy!
.....Are looking for ways to put rice in the table tonight.
.....Are thinking of suicide as a means to end their life.
.....Are preparing for that friday night party.
.....Buying stuff for a birthday present tomorrow.
.....Preparing to get their nails done.
.....driving to the province.

But there are some, like a friend of mine who did not know he is not going to wake up again. Nobody knew. He just slept probably thinking how to make his girl happy tomorrow or what to give her for Christmas or what have you. Now his family is flying back from New Jersey on a night flight, his sister going home to Indang to take care of his interment.

Mark, You will be missed.

A sold, not so smart eye.

One day I was surfing the net looking for an opportunity for content writing when I chanced upon a part time 20k opportunity.

Part Time/Full Time

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Reply to: job-903658284@craigslist.org [?]
Date: 2008-11-03, 4:20PM PHT



A US-based Multinational Company publicly listed in the New York Stock Exchange and operational in 69 countries with over 28 years experience in the Health & Nutrition Industry. Offering Work from Home system. For our local expansion, we are in need of 5 key people from different fields to work with.

Tasks include inquiries, trainings, event promotions, and follow-ups that are mostly done over the phone, through internet, or SMS, and can opt to work from home.

Qualifications:
1) 21-55 years old
2) College level or graduate of any course
3) Has good work habits
4) Teachable
5) Willing to be trained locally and internationally
6) Has valid passport (but not preferred)

Montlhy income varies from the hours you put in.
Part-Time: up to P20,000/month
Full-Time: 50,000 and up/month


Send resume to mctindiongco@aim.com or text 09266489362 / 09228892398 for interview schedule.

THIS AD GOT ME TODAY.


Compensation: 20,000 part time
This is a part-time job.
Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
Please, no phone calls about this job!
Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.
PostingID: 903658284

So okay I give it a shot. You will never know. And then I got a reply.



SO I say wow sure. And then I confirmed.

Trekking the makati lane and looking for the building I chanced upon this:



THAT IS THE ONLY ESTABLISHMENT INSIDE I PROCEEDED AND ASKED FOR THE LADY's NAME and there she was.

I walked out because I was pissed. I have nothing against MLM , they are money making opportunities for people who are very very hard working and very very pr oriented but the thing is they were poor in selling me to go and have an orientation. I was thinking they had to entice me with some salesbook technique and not be direct. I tried going once with a friend but a different product and the reason why I went is because he directly asked me to go and he told me where and what it was. He did not run around and tell me some mystical money thats going to land in my lap just because I am going to deal with email follow ups and calls for a US listed company.

But it reflects something though about what my mind and eyes see and grab...FOOL! I learned a good lesson about this today and as pissed as I was for wasting time, I cannot get pissed at them. Truth is I was still sold by this ad, and so will some ambitious people who wish to work from home.

BLOGGER AND BLOGEE REVAMP

I have been in the blog mode again. I now take in Content writing jobs and haven't cracked the cash cow potential yet but will get there. they say the more famous you are the more money you get. So my online goals for the meantime (note to self : These are not life and death goals.) is to:

1.) Finally make articles for my blog not just paid ones.

I noticed I've just really been doing a lot of ghost writing and or paid articles. there is not much expression on this blog not unlike when it once started. ( well they were dark expressions of my drunken moments) Things changed now so I should not be afraid to say whatever I think about now irregardless whether it is wrong or right. I will not be lazy to spend some quality on this thing. I got to put some confidence again in writing. I have been stopped by taking other people's opinions about my style personally. I look at some other friends of mine way back who started blogging with me. To hell they cared about people who bash their style in writing and as they moved on from one blow to another, you look at them now and they either are article writers for magazines and newspapers and or editors. They started writing as crappy as I did. Sensible life means sensible writing. So I will make my life sensible now so I can finally write something.

2.) Google Page Rank on the 6th Power
I try not to be very ambitious at this moment but aim for a Google Page Rank 6. So far I am in the 2. I just don't want to be stuck on a Page Rank Level 2 which I have been in for a year since I last started filling this with some rants and thoughts since the time I decided to write again.

3.) Put some sense in my adsense:

I found out that my adsense account wasn't set up right. Since I found out about SEO, I promised to focus more in the right keywording and specifying channels for my adsense account. I am stuck with the last amount that I checked and have not progressed from there.

4.) Social Bookmark.. to death.

I found out there are a lot, and I mean a lot of social bookmarking websites that catalog posts for efficient searching. connecting to them means connecting to the world so there I will go. To know more about social bookmarking click here.

5.) Aim for a block on Pages:

What I mean to say is to have dominance in the google search of the name Remy Marie Del Rosario in google. I did quite an achievement already since I last looked and have stopped at 2 pages of my full name. I aim for ten pages at least. FYI, doing a search on my online monicker, theremymarie has already bought 4 blocks in searches. Key: Post your self to death any where.

Why am I trying to achieve these goals anyhow? To be a credible provider of SEO services. How can you offer Search optimization when you cannot search optimize your name right? Doesnt make sense to me but its funny because I just have my own ways of doing things. I like it because its a strength of mine but sometimes it becomes a problem when I think I'm so right.

Back to Content Writing and design

I have been back to freelance undertakings and still have room for more articles.

I have been in much overhaul lately and would be posting my recent online discoveries soon.