Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

I am close to my forties, been running around like a drunk ass lost soul, still a frustrated songwriter who can't keep a band together, a frustrated designer, who's just made 2 pieces of clothing, a frustrated nerd who is trying to learn to code, a frustrated dieter who loves to drink her beer and a frustrated guitar player who can't sing and play the guitar at the same time. A single woman without a wing man. That's me awkward for pictures, PHOTO TAKEN BY: NIKON CELIS. And that's Gino my sometimes asshole friend. I am getting old sitting through my flaws, make fun of it and or try to wait for a breakthrough. I am not the kind who gives up though. I constantly fight through everyday. I believe in the power of seeking for a breakthrough. I was not raised properly by parents so I kind of had to figure out stuff on my own, with the help of my circumstances. It wasn't my parents fault, I chose what I chose. I chose independence and with closed eyes I jumpe...

What is home? Home is where Pablo is, waiting for me, loves me unconditionally. Like God who is always on the watch makes me feel both comfortable and uncomfortable the same time, which is a big thing on it's own and like the Devil always looking to destroy something when I am not watching, waiting to irritate and when I am sucked in to his playing, wants to provoke. If I choose to ignore him, his behavior is not fed, but if I react, he uses it as a tool to get what he wants. I still am learning a great deal from my interaction with this feline. He keeps the balance in my life. He is a dog for a reason. He has only a few years to live for me to learn my life's lessons. Where is home? Home is where People in my life are for a good reason they come stay and go for some good or bad lessons that propel you to move forward. They are not my blood relatives, some of them very good friends, others think were very good friends but it is in the exterior but is a continous work in p...

Yesterday morning before I went to church as I was praying what struck me was God's promise in Isaiah 62 (MSG) which I believe is for me and the people I am surrounded with: God has taken a solemn oath, an oath he means to keep: "Never again will I open your grain-filled barns to your enemies to loot and eat. Never again will foreigners drink the wine that you worked so hard to produce. No. The farmers who grow the food will eat the food and praise God for it. And I know as soon as I read that I know things changed. I woke up this morning and I knew it was different. It seemed like a limitation was hacked! Oh wow, Thank God! happy sunday!

There are just some nice, good, things that happen in somebody's life. Sometimes they are too good and nice that we tend to make a big deal out of it because we see ourselves too small, walking in stiff steps we fumble, stumble and fall. Because it was too huge to handle, we crush ourselves in the process. Thats when you have to have people who care enough to grab you by the horns and bring you back up, no matter what. People around you who believe that you are more than you think you are they are violently grabbing you out of the quagmire you stumbled yourself with. In this crazy world where friends come and go, I count myself lucky because I am sorrounded by people who love me. As unbelievable as it is, I was so loved. Perfect love that drives away fear, melts the hardest heart of men. I can say I had a very hard heart, the hardest heart that I have ever known at least. A heart that abhored vulnerable moments, who smoked and drank away that squeezy feeling everytime it came, quit...

The pictures were taken from a weekend trip in Baler Aurora, Incase you don't know where the heck that is, Good news, We did not know too where on earth it was. All we knew was we got off our house went to Megamall and bought a map in national bookstore. After that we opened the map of Luzon and picked a destination. The rest was adventure. And I was so thanking God giving the ability for man to come up with a thing called GPRS. I just researched using my phone till we got to where we are going. I admit it was impulsive. But the place was nice. I am not teaching you to get off unannounced because it placates danger. But just incase you plan on going to Baler, Aurora you may have to consider these factoids in tow. 1.) A plane, Sea Air its called flies there Monday and Friday 3:00 PM and 3:50 PM respectively. ONLY 2.) If you choose to travel by land, it will take you 8 hours via Genesis. For more info just walk along cubao just like what we did and ask the diff buss stations to point...

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today? - I jogged in ultra and learned things today and lots of it. Like how you can be trusted and how you can even be trusted in life without trying and just be. That way you never have to work so hard because you are just a trustworthy person, dependable because you expand and be a source of ideas and all of that. I picked that up from the lifeline empowerment seminar I went into yesterday. How many TRUE friends do you have? - Baby I got a lot right now. I just understand people better now because i try to make things not personal. Thats the number one killer of my relationships in the past and boy how I screwed up most of them by being bitter and by looking after the bad things they have done and sticking with the bad ones that I know about because I was scared of getting into the friendship thing you know. I always kept myself at bay and realized I have already built a cocoon of hate, which is kinda odd because it wasn't ...