Saturday, March 5, 2016

Maharlika Paradise: A Secret Pristine Preserved spot in Wawa Montalban.

I have been coming back to Maharlika Paradise, A DENR Protected site being cared for by Ang Kasama Inc., of the Samahang Maharlika Movement at Sitio Sabangan, Wawa Montalban, everytime I want a space out of the hustle and bustle of that Manila wildlife we are addicted to. It is here where
I plug in to the vibrations of the earth and it's bounty. I get to meditate a few hours and feel refreshed for the week ahead. It is a measly 25-35 minute walk from the Pamitian DENR office. It is a secret enclave known to some of the underground artists and famous writers that seek solace towards enlightenment. It is a half way house of the transitioning empowered soul, as I can call it.  

Beyond the peace and quiet that Maharlika Paradise has to offer, what drew me to this movement is the passion for uncovering the realities of one of our societies' lies. This was also the same fight that some of our predecessors have been fighting with including the late president Ferdinand Marcos. Bringing back the original foundation of our country from the spanish' Philippines to Maharlika. Not only that, our rich culture is so muddied by colonialism and all this isms that our roots are being compromised. Maharlika Paradise in general is a protected preservation of integral morals of our original citizenship.

In Lieu with this an annual "Maharlika Summit" is held in different places of the Philippines. This Summit will be held this year at Baguio City.

Back to the Paintings:

Through the goodness of my Meditation Mentor, Dada Deo Palma, I am able to channel my love for art through my expressed meditative strokes during my stay.

This was my Mural art Pre - Motherhood by the guesthouse way back 2013:

At this time I was with Lawrence my song writing buddy as he was my designated driver back then. How I miss lo's company. It's just he is in his cycle of life right now that we cannot control but would pass. 

And this is my mural in progress for the daycare kitchen:

This is Taluli and me while I was doing my mural:

I am very blessed to be able to share this experience and way of life to my son in my quest to have him live the freedom that he so greatly deserve.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

I am a sucker for Lonely Love Poems

When I look at  Lang leav 's works, I have a very fond memory of my high school days. I made a poetry book about a boy I fucking adored with all my heart which I personally designed the cover, self bound  as my first personal published book that I kept to myself for myself. I bring it to school everyday and read it in my corner while I would steal a glance and feel my heart melt. Until the day that My favorite HS Teacher in the whole wide world Dugayo Jr JB stole ( or I was too sloppy to leave?) my very important book and published one of my poems in the school paper. I am forever grateful for that very embarrassing moment that turned out to be the best gift ever. That is when I gained confidence in expressing myself as an artist

Issues and Responsibilities


I really don't know what I want. All I know is I stay in the here and now and here and now has a good day and a bad day. I do not know if someone as of yet has the capacity to be there in the days of my life where it will not all be sunshine and will remain the same in the good or bad times.  I never really wished for a boy to marry because it just did not make sense to me. I think of too much logic in things sometimes its too deep and only a handful of my friends including my mom dig it up with me.  I write shallow songs because I don't want to feel judged and raped just because I have exposed my reality. My feelings are so deep vast and unknown that I tread with caution.  I just wanted a guy so committed to be there for me every damn day, consistently accept these dark bits and pieces of me. This guy must understand that this keeps Me grounded. I don't need a man who makes 10 million or billion pesos a year or whatever figure because I know my capacity to out earn you any God Given day. All I want is an open minded fucker who can be another individual to be equal with me...a guy who doesn't get consumed with dualism..A guy who knows himself and is unafraid. It is as simple as it gets.

I was never lucky I thought to myself, but then again the truth is I write my own destiny. The last times my fear got the best of me I ran away and did an act of Houdini. I was a coward at this coming to the depths of relationship thing. I now decide to face this head on and for once stop being a poser for strength. I have a sense that this is somewhat different.

I am learning from my boss the art of getting through natures course without passing judgement. So I am exercising this now in my relations to this person I am dating.

Whatever is the result of this Isolation will take the next course of emotional freedom that I am about to undertake.