Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

Every now and then I go through waves of sadness thinking about the future. But I know all of this would be washed away someday. All I know is my hormones are raging and just right now alcohol nor cigarettes are sacrificed because there is a human being that needs to live inside of me. I am facing my own human weaknesses by my natural instincts without the suppressing of substances to make me temporarily happy and or fixed. Work is progressing internally. THAT is something to be happy about. I have been surrendering to crying and sobbing when I need to even if it feels silly or no reason at all because I know If I didn't let it go, it will cause more problems for me, my heart and the baby.

There are times when you look back at your life and you find out all along that whatever that took you this far made you who you are to come to this point. This pregnancy has thought me things I learned about my self in 2 weeks than I ever did in 34 years, imagine that? It is making me love myself because there is a being that is your own that you are taking care of that requires you loving yourself the way you have never loved yourself ever before and you are sure as shit there is no way around it but that. Destiny and the people you meet along the way are no accidents so I have only forgiveness in my heart that I have. I know that jusr every bitter thought that comes across that make me pity myself is just the control dying because I didnt have it my way in particular situations where it was almost perfect in my thoughts. You know what thought passed me? That all the while, I am enough and I am worthy and I will never ever sell my self short again to fill the void because there is...

This is funny Im eating a meatpie while waiting for my car to get washed and just one dramatic thought about my situation passed by, I burst into tears...taking a bite of the meat pie...wow. Hahaha. My hormones must be raging Damn.

I am pregnant. Yes. I am going to be a mom to a human and not only dogs. (Whew, finally.) I decided to blog it so to have a release because I am finding out right now that my mental and emotional wiring are screaming shots wildly. It needs management. Im calling it a name. The control freak fanny or CFF Im scared this control freak fanny resurface when situations are not great. CFF tunes in a lot and is hypersensitive towards judging situations and can hold a person or a crew emotionally hostaged. Now why did I say that? Because of the fact that now I am preggers CFF decides to resurface and take control and be always right about the why and the what of things, people around me will automatically have to deal and understand. CFF is a very wicked enemy a buy product of emotions which is very very nasty. Call it my primal fear in this next season. I know the solution though on how to kill CFF ...ask for help. Hahaha. So i messaged Dada Palma, my meditation mentor if I can spend ti...

Been a long time since I blogged. Well I would like to share a clipping from a book which was a good read yesterday that I'd like to take to heart regarding forgiveness. Here is the truth: You’ve never been bad. Neither has anyone else. We all carry all the attributes of pure divinity of Source itself! In our essence we are the highest vibration of light and love. Likewise, you’ve never done anything wrong. Neither has anyone else. Everything that anyone has ever done has always been an attempt to take care of themselves with whatever inner resources they had at the time. This might be hard to take in because we are conditioned to make ourselves and each other wrong. To heal, we must learn to see ourselves and each other from the eyes of Source. And how does Source see us? With unlimited, unconditional love. It sees us as sparks of Itself who have come to this plane to go through experiences, make mistakes and learn from them. In each experience we have the choice to let ...

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