A moment of weakness: Motherhood Dramatics

Every now and then I go through waves of sadness thinking about the future.

But I know all of this would be washed away someday.

All I know is my hormones are raging and just right now alcohol nor cigarettes are sacrificed because there is a human being that needs to live inside of me. I am facing my own human weaknesses by my natural instincts without the suppressing of substances to make me temporarily happy and or fixed. Work is progressing internally. THAT is something to be happy about.

I have been surrendering to crying and sobbing when I need to even if it feels silly or no reason at all because I know If I didn't let it go, it will cause more problems for me, my heart and the baby.

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