Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

I get high on my own so I am all alone nakakalungkot isipin na madalas sa lakbay na to ako lang talaga mag isa. Kayod na lang para me relevance ako.  Ganun talaga. Hindi ka pinagpala. Hmmm..

She was running as fast as she could  While no one was holding her down Then someone came along to lift her up You kept grabbing her by the arm  Your words are like daggers  Pinning her on the ground while she wanted to fly She tried to escape so she can no longer be raped By your abusive rants and cries She kept changing her life so her future can be so bright But the atmosphere of your existence was savage  And energy so negative That she cannot see the light Now she is drowning alone  Catching her life in deep breath Her body now wretched and tired  That you pushed her towards her death.

Why do I sing the songs that I sing? Why do I make the songs I make? I kept thinking about that after my Jam session in Kooky Tuasons' show where in I was a guest along with 2 lifestyle geniuses. Photo Courtesy of Bigkas Pilipinas  I was asked by  AA Patawaran, Manila Bulletin's Lifestyle editor something to the effect of why do I make my songs. Afraid to explain a fair bit and call too much attention to myself, I resorted to explaining it in bits that would be interesting so I can avoid going down the path of dragging listeners to boredom.It was a funny version of the whole explanation as to why. It bothered me that I did not express my truth fully because I was afraid to draw too much attention to the place in my soul I secretly call my own. Link to the 4 hour show here: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2337386626494279&id=249511228120 The fact is , that is a question that I am asked often. Kevin Roy asked me that in our joint gig in parana...

Taluli is now 4 and is in the age when he is super curious and super enjoying pretend play and that the only way to get him to pay attention is through relatable mediums like his favorite YouTube, Sci Fi and Supernatural.  Every parent wants to manage a kid these days and part of this is giving them gadgets where they can play and watch YouTube, I know it is the worst thing you can do to a kid but because these kids are naturally seeking stimulus relating to anything that is in YouTube when a parent is absent and busy hence making YouTube an ally to these toddlers. But when is enough, enough? I have noticed that Taluli started to sound like a YouTuber and would talk about anything that is in YouTube and adapt mannerisms, and expressions as exaggerated as a YouTuber would sound,  like a total disconnect to reality. That is when I already had to draw the line and think of ways on how to not necessary keep him off of the Tube, but limit his exposure to it.  Talul...

So everyone is on to their new year's resolution and I am sitting here having second thoughts as to what and how will I approach my "coming-into-my-forties" year which is just another year supposedly, but with bigger responsibilities. (uhm, Taluli is getting bigger wiser and full of dreams and promise that I gotta give a boy a better life besides what we have now) At this time of my life, I finally have embraced my leadership skills and talent for figuring out shit from puzzle pieces that I do that as a full time career.  So heck I will lead my self now and figure shit out from the puzzle pieces of my own life and take full reign of my happier future.  Pweh daming kuda! So on to my new year's resolution: 1.) I will try and bike to work so I will be back to my fitter self so I can eat what I want and have a reason to eat them, sans rice which killed my vibe so bad.      I used to bike to work and saved so much and ate everything I want sans the ri...

Forgive yourself for being human in craving things that are wrong and that are bad for you simply because you hurt yourself over and  over again and again For grabbing things you dont know about  For playing Fire Games that eventually burn  And Scar and become Permanent Inprints Of the innocence you felt you were robbed of Yes it is you who opened the door and you who allowed But that does not mean that you are to blame or she is to blame Know that life happens to the current reason of your state of being Though you get motivated with every single fucking blister  from walking with shoes that are not fit for you You just need to all of a sudden succumb to retire to the fact that, hey  The illusion of appearance and standards of being are fallacies born by social stigmas  And that getting tired is just a state of mind fighting to react towards the wave that steal ones happiness is the real battle.  that no money can buy no thing can satisfy And Getting through that minute every single t...

thank you lord for the gift of 39 years in life thank you for making 2018 my year thank you for giving me a second chance in life thank you for opening up doors for me thank you for the love that you always showed me thank you for loving me inconditionally  thank you for making me strong, wise and humble  thank you for making me  thank you for giving me Taluli thank you for blessing me with awesome people in my life You have no idea how you blessed my life  You always catched me when I fell You became a father to me more than everyone or anyone can ever be You truly have never left me Whoever you are they may call you God But i call you mine.