Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

I'm not much into the drama of things because I got so sick of that in my younger years. But this is one day where I allow myself to go down to the bits of my soul and cry the most bittersweet tears that I best enjoy alone. Pagbigyan nyo na ako sa GIF na to. Pwede mag feeling Angelina Jolie lang birthday naman? It is about 11:48 PM September 18, in a few minutes I'm a year older. I am playing my Spotify Birthday Mix , which I built august and been playing solidly for a few days now. Some things that are new and stimulating events that happened this year, I am really thankful to the God that works this universe for making the right fittings for my life in the right moments,  right times and has never ever failed me in this journey. I am very thankful to T.G.T.W.T.U (to the God that works this universe) BECAUSE: My most precious gift, Tala Elija , who is now a year and 3 months strong  is growing to be a very healthy,  smart, and sweet. He is becoming a ball...

It's been a year and 3 months post partum, I felt I skipped the post partum blues because I went hyper social just not to get caught in the emotional chaos that they are talking about, Saved my baby from the bad vibes as he is now a light to everybody's darkness, his smile is a beauty and his sweetness divine. But lately, it has been taking a toll on my body. I am 100 pounds overweight and feeling the effects of any person who have undergone any surgery and all that drugs that came along with it, weakness, inability to focus, tingling sensation from the waist below specially in the right leg that started while I was 3 months pregs with the talulibugger . I seriously substituted feelings with either food or alcohol to drown out all the feelings that will affect my son. I think I have been doing this all my life and now the excuse is my son. Deep stuff. Shit. Anyway. I am going to have my break through on this one,